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failguardian) wrote2017-10-21 11:54 pm
failguardian) wrote2017-10-21 11:54 pm
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[And Nephry puts a hand on her shoulder]
How do you think Ion would feel, then, if he found out you were...faking your feelings for him, just so he wouldn't feel bad about it?
How do you think Ion would feel, then, if he found out you were...faking your feelings for him, just so he wouldn't feel bad about it?
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[She flinches at the unexpected touch, then relaxes, slumping. When she speaks, her voice is barely more than a whisper.] He would be even more hurt than he is right now, won't he?
I don't think he would want you to be dishonest with yourself just to make him happy. ...But I can't speak for him, of course.
No...you're probably right. [With some effort, she pushes herself up.] But what do I do now? He won't even speak to me through the journals!
I...[She stops, realizing she had no idea how to respond.] I'll tell him I'm sorry. And I really miss him...
[Poor thing. It's no easier on her with no knowledge of the future, is it?]
Would you be able to say that anyway? Perhaps he will look at his journal again later.
Would you be able to say that anyway? Perhaps he will look at his journal again later.
Huh? [The more she thinks about it, the more it makes sense.] Yeah, I think I will. Thanks, Nephry. [She closes her eyes as another thought occurs to her.] He won't think I'm annoying him, would he?
It is my experience that when you have those sorts of feelings for someone, getting a surprise message from them isn't annoying.
Really? You have experience with stuff like this?
[Which, in retrospect, is an awfully stupid question considering you're married.Shush she doesn't know about your tragic romantic history yet ]
[Which, in retrospect, is an awfully stupid question considering you're married.
You could say that. I've been in love, you know. [A quick, secretive smile.] And it seems to me like both of you aren't sure what to do right now. Doing what feels right is probably best.
A kitten? [Anise nods quickly.] You brought him back? Thank you! He's my friend, Ion. The Malnosso kidnapped him!
But I'm just not sure what's right! I just...I just wish things would go back to how they were before...[She takes a deep breath, and tries to smile.]
[Oh Anise. Don't force a smile if you can't, it never works.]
I think you will discover that you would rather know, actually.
[Nephry lowers her voice, then, which is already low from being in a library.]
It's all right to be upset. No one is going to be mad at you.
I think you will discover that you would rather know, actually.
[Nephry lowers her voice, then, which is already low from being in a library.]
It's all right to be upset. No one is going to be mad at you.
Really? But it just made things so complicated. [She rubs at her eyes.] I feel like I'm begin selfish and shoving all my problems onto you...Heheh, sorry, Nephry.
[They really are similar, those two. They just don't see it.]
It's hardly selfish. Don't worry about it.
It's hardly selfish. Don't worry about it.
[She laughs a bit, but it sounds quiet and folorn.] Well, enough about me. What's your own love life like?
[My, what a question.]
I'm married, you know.
I'm married, you know.
What about before that? Did you know that you loved him as soon as you saw him? [That's what happens in fairytales, right? Maybe it could happen in the real world too. Everything in fairytales have a basis in the real world, right?]
[This is the saddest smile.]
My marriage was foretold in the Score.
My marriage was foretold in the Score.
Huh...?
[It takes her a second to understand.]
So...you didn't love him?
[It takes her a second to understand.]
So...you didn't love him?
Ah...well, no. Not at first. [Not for a long time. If ever, really.]
I did love...someone else, though. And not right away, either. Not the moment we met.
I did love...someone else, though. And not right away, either. Not the moment we met.
That's...I...[She rubs at her eyes, feeling more frustrated than ever. It shouldn't be this way. The Score was supposed to be good, to lead everyone to happiness.]
[Even now, it still feels strange not to rely on the Score.]
Thanks for telling me that, Nephry. I feel better now.
[Although the expression on her face says otherwise.]
[Even now, it still feels strange not to rely on the Score.]
Thanks for telling me that, Nephry. I feel better now.
[Although the expression on her face says otherwise.]
Forgive me, then, for not believing that you do.
[Though she's smiling, still, a little.]
Unlike me, Anise, you have the chance to make your own decisions. [She catches herself, just barely, before adding "here and in Auldrant."] To decide for yourself how you feel.
[Though she's smiling, still, a little.]
Unlike me, Anise, you have the chance to make your own decisions. [She catches herself, just barely, before adding "here and in Auldrant."] To decide for yourself how you feel.
I'm fine! Really! [The forced smile makes its appearance again as she nods decisively.] I will. Thanks. Um, if it's fine with you, I'll be getting back to the house now.
[She wants to be alone for a bit.]
[She wants to be alone for a bit.]
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