Appointment Post

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[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

[She doesn't object at all, following dully after Nephry and slouching down onto the chair she's directed to.]

[silversnowfall]

[Nephry makes sure to take a seat nearby then.]

Will you tell me what happened?

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

[Tell Nephry...? They weren't that close, but Anise wants to talk with someone and she seems willing to listen. Nephry wasn't cruel and mocking like the older girls in the Fon Master Guard, and she's an adult, so she had to have some experience with things like this, right...? Anise decides to just go ahead with it.]

We just talked. He...[It's still hard to believe it, even now.] Ion told me he [her voice dies away to a quiet mumble] loves me.

[silversnowfall]

[Anise never did get to hear the story of Nephry and Peony, in full, the way she intended to share it.]

That seems to have upset you.

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

[Don't worry, she has no idea you're Peony's first love yet.]

I just...I don't know how I feel about him! [She's sounding desperate now.] Why can't I just love him too?

[silversnowfall]

[Does she know it's still true?]

It's hard, isn't it? [And these two are only thirteen and appears-to-be-fifteen. It's not like they have a lot of basis for understanding.] There's nothing wrong with not knowing quite how you feel in return, though.

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

[Nope...Or she'll be asking you for tips on how to attract an Emperor.]

Really? [She blinks, surprised.] But I hurt him so badly!

[silversnowfall]

Because you don't feel the same way?

[This is so...both of them are actually thinking along the same lines and beating themselves up over it.]

Would you rather have lied, just to make him happy?

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

I...[She groans quietly and flops down onto the table, burying her face in her arms.] I don't know...But it would make him happier, wouldn't it? And it's not like I dislike him, so...

[silversnowfall]

[And Nephry puts a hand on her shoulder]

How do you think Ion would feel, then, if he found out you were...faking your feelings for him, just so he wouldn't feel bad about it?

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

[She flinches at the unexpected touch, then relaxes, slumping. When she speaks, her voice is barely more than a whisper.] He would be even more hurt than he is right now, won't he?

[silversnowfall]

I don't think he would want you to be dishonest with yourself just to make him happy. ...But I can't speak for him, of course.

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

No...you're probably right. [With some effort, she pushes herself up.] But what do I do now? He won't even speak to me through the journals!

[silversnowfall]

If he did, what would you say to him?

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

I...[She stops, realizing she had no idea how to respond.] I'll tell him I'm sorry. And I really miss him...

[silversnowfall]

[Poor thing. It's no easier on her with no knowledge of the future, is it?]

Would you be able to say that anyway? Perhaps he will look at his journal again later.

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

Huh? [The more she thinks about it, the more it makes sense.] Yeah, I think I will. Thanks, Nephry. [She closes her eyes as another thought occurs to her.] He won't think I'm annoying him, would he?

[silversnowfall]

It is my experience that when you have those sorts of feelings for someone, getting a surprise message from them isn't annoying.

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

Really? You have experience with stuff like this?

[Which, in retrospect, is an awfully stupid question considering you're married. Shush she doesn't know about your tragic romantic history yet ]

[silversnowfall]

You could say that. I've been in love, you know. [A quick, secretive smile.] And it seems to me like both of you aren't sure what to do right now. Doing what feels right is probably best.

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

But I'm just not sure what's right! I just...I just wish things would go back to how they were before...[She takes a deep breath, and tries to smile.]

[silversnowfall]

[Oh Anise. Don't force a smile if you can't, it never works.]

I think you will discover that you would rather know, actually.

[Nephry lowers her voice, then, which is already low from being in a library.]

It's all right to be upset. No one is going to be mad at you.

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

Really? But it just made things so complicated. [She rubs at her eyes.] I feel like I'm begin selfish and shoving all my problems onto you...Heheh, sorry, Nephry.

[silversnowfall]

[They really are similar, those two. They just don't see it.]

It's hardly selfish. Don't worry about it.

[pigtailed-loli.livejournal.com]

[She laughs a bit, but it sounds quiet and folorn.] Well, enough about me. What's your own love life like?